I dreamt of this day, but never thought it would feel this disappointing

I dreamt of this day, but never thought it would feel this disappointing;

Short update before I DOTA !

Today, came to school regardless of the fact that i was not feeling well. " Asshole " ruined my day, as usual. In an okay mood today.

I dreamt of this day, but never thought it would feel this disappointing. I never thought it would feel this awkward. I know nothing but still carry on. I have no other alternative.