I pick myself up and get back in the race

I pick myself up and get back in the race;

In this game of love, i'm the underdog,
the black horse, the bottom of pile.
i don't mind starting late, but finishing first.
the prize i would win is you, my trophy.
the fact remains that i would never win this race.
he's just faster, stronger and better.
i'm fine with the thought of never being two inches closer to you but,
heed this reminder, i will always be there.

through the rain, your knight in shining armor will come through.
i would be your prince charming that kisses you awake from your sleep.
i would be your cure to any ailments you may have.
to end this script, i have few words of affection;

that's life, that's what all the people say. you're riding high in april, shot down in may.
that's me.

Ian Goh

Title Pending

Title Pending;

This is the first time I have ever loved;

Yours, the first face I can not forget.

I think you are afraid, perhaps, and moved

To wonder whether you should do this yet.

I also am afraid, and yet I know

That wonder is a thing that needs a yes;

Should you step back and let this moment go,

Both you and I will have to live with less.

Please trust my love, as I must trust in yours.

It's strong as steel, as delicate as lace,

Immovable as battered granite shores:

I feel its power and unremitting grace.

So come, my love, and try this love with me;

Let your love speak, and then you will agree.

Ian Goh

If only I could erase you from my mind, but the sad part is, I can never do that* editted

If only I could erase you from my mind, but the sad part is, I can never do that;

Went to pyramid today, was going to watch Harry Potter ( DDD: ) with Eugene, Joshua and the Alaistair. Went in through the front entrance saw Sheila :D

Eugene came along after and went to the cinema to buy tickets. Played at the arcade for a while. Watched Harry Potter ( which sucked ) and played at the arcade some more. When it was 6, went to redbox.

The begining was fun but, the mid and later parts were stressful, i like stressful :D Some " things " happened that I cannot mention. Oh and ZW, you can always talk to me, I know how it's like to love someone but at the same moment knowing that you can never have her ):

If there was a way, I could erase

Erase this memory of you from my mind, I would do it

Even if it takes a huge toll on me, I would

Even if the toll was to burn in hell, I would do it

I am as thick skinned as a rhino

I can never change what I like

Never knowing what it would be like without the memory,

the memory of you

*editted

I HAVE TO GO BACK TO PAINTING ! OMG. I have not painted anything in two weeks T.T

Painting helps me forget her, even though it's only for an hour. Alcohol too :D Lasts longer. Haha.

Ian Goh

Love Guru Love Struck

Love Guru Love Struck;

Today, boring. Finally, the school realised my class has no moral teacher and assigned one. Bitch. KH, sat for one and a half hour talking to Er Eugene :D Parasites kept disturbing. One black, one Asian and one indon. I didn't mean the last one :D After school, DOTA ! :O KS-ed Eugene like fuck. Haha.

So helpless, plan backfired today ): Asshole again. Sadness.

The first word i would say, excuse me?

The first thing i would do, pose WTF ! HAHA

The first contact, priceless :O

Ian Goh

The Plan

The Plan;

#1 Schemer

#2 Executor

#3 Man with a plan

#4 Me

#5 Victim

Ian Goh

I dreamt of this day, but never thought it would feel this disappointing

I dreamt of this day, but never thought it would feel this disappointing;

Short update before I DOTA !

Today, came to school regardless of the fact that i was not feeling well. " Asshole " ruined my day, as usual. In an okay mood today.

I dreamt of this day, but never thought it would feel this disappointing. I never thought it would feel this awkward. I know nothing but still carry on. I have no other alternative.

Patching It Up !

Patching It Up !;

Have you ever lost a friend? Waiting for the day he/she talks to you again? Wrong. You should make the first move. Never fear. What's there to lose? I know everyone has their doubts but do as they say: Doubt not and thou shall not be doubted upon.

The first word;

The first word is crucial in this delicate matter. You can't be too hard on but also not too soft.

The Patching Up;

Patching up depends on ones own person. I can't tell you what to say. It really depends on you. If have bit of advive though, don't lose that friend again.

The Aftermath;

See how far you've progressed, adapt and continue on from there.

Nothing much today. Was supposed to go Genting but I was too lazy. Yesterday, OMG. I sat in the car (OTW back from Hulu Langat ) and got a half-an-hour lecture from my NZ uncle. Arrived at aunts house and sat there for another hour, LECTURE T_T I was pissed after that and went home straight away. Was supposed to sing karaoke at aunts house but somebody ruined my mood. Cous stayed over at my house, again. He went to Genting.

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away

Now they look as though theyre here to stay,

Oh I believe in yesterday, oh I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly Im not half the man I used to be.

Theres a shadow hanging over me, oh yesterday came suddenly.

Why she had to go I dont know, she wouldnt say.

I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play,

Now I need a place to hide away, oh I believe in yesterday.

Ian Goh

Change my life, permanently

Change my life, permanently;

Nothing much to say. I'll just walkthrough my day :

Woke up. Usual routine, brushed teeth and showered. Went down ate noodles. Went through exams. After school, went out with the guys to Salmon Steak. I haven't been there for a year O.O Went back to school thriugh the lorong. Sat for IGCSE retake. I finished English in 15 mins :D Maths, don't even get me started. Luckily Chein Wee was infront of me :D Handed up paper and went out infront of the auditorioum. Saw Jing and May Yin there. Waited for the rest to finish. Went to CC after, DOTA ! :D and now i'm here.

Life changes, we adapt.

We get hurt, we heal.

We get insulted, we ignore.

We are looked down upon, we grow taller.

But, a scarce from you, I will never heal,

An insult from you, I will never ignore.

Ian Goh

Two Drifters, Off To See The World +1

Two Drifters, Off To See The World +1;

Today, Chinese was boring. English was mediocre and Science was challenging. Learnt how to fix the 2nd layer on the rubix cube. Talked to Er Eugene in class. I finally found someone else who "tu-lan's" SOMEBODY in class.

Now, staring at geo workbook. Listening to Sinatra. Why? A lot on my mind. His music relaxes me. Waiting on Jing Her. Waiting on tomorrow. Waiting on maid to bring me my coffee. Waiting for the world to stop and realise, it's going the wrong way.

+1;

Doubt if you shall, my feelings for you are for ever more.

Ignore if you shall, I will never.

Hate if you must, but thoughts like that will never cross my mind.

Condemn if you feel, I don't mind.

Ian Goh

Save a life, save my life

Save a life, save my life;

You killed yourself and didn't think of me. I can't blame you for that, and yet I do, For now your

pain becomes my legacy.

What agony impelled you not to be? You killed yourself and didn't think of me,

Nor saw through my eyes what you made me see, Nor cared about my life when yours was through. And now your pain becomes my legacy,

And I must fight to keep my sanity, For what you did defines what must be true: You killed yourself and didn't think of me.

I cannot think you did it selfishly; So great a sacrifice leaves nothing due. But now your pain becomes my legacy,

And I must sail across that bitter sea, That leaves no trace of joy or residue. You killed yourself and didn't think of me, So now your pain becomes my legacy.

I never want to really mean this ! ):

Ian Goh

Our Bonds and Ties

Our Bonds and Ties;

Insprired by the great braChew;

Never doubt if you do, never trust if you don't; That will be my saying from now on :D

Today, Monday, the worst day of the week. Had a bad start for the week because of some asshole. Did NOTHING productive. Standard laa. Haha.

Feeling angry now. I have this urge to whack kau someone. braChew, if you ever decide to " you know what " call me. Imma' whack him until his mother cannot recognise him.

Baddd mood. Lucky Er Eugene never disturb me today but still, some assholes did.

Ian Goh

I'm starting with the man in the mirror, I'm going to make that change +1

I'm starting with the man in the mirror, I'm going to make that change +1;

Firstly, something big's gonna go down really soon. Can't tell you what but it's important to us guys.

I'll start from yesterday. Went for dinner in puteri with whole family. Ate at Tak Fok restaurant. Ate 6kg's of crab O.O Went to the 32 bar close by the restaurant with a few of my family members. Absolut-ed there because I was feeling a bit down. Went back to aunts place. Sang a few Michael Jackson songs downstairs at the karaoke room and had a few glasses of wine.

Today, woke up really, really late. A bit hung over. Watched Changeling with cous. Went for dinner in town, opposite Pavilion at some " HAKKA " restaurant. The name of the restaurant also Hakka.

+1;

In every turn, I see your shadow. Too scared to go near it, too afraid I might hurt myself.

Nothing else matters in this world. As long as you stay in my line of sight.

You might feel different about me compared to the way I fell about you.

You make the sun shine, you make the stars appear at night, you make the wind blow,

but, most importantly, you can say it's cliche but you takee my breath away.

Ian Goh

Friendship Is A Treasure And A Curse

Friendship Is A Treasure And A Curse;

Like the SEXY Zhou wrote on his blog, friendship is a special thing. We should cherish it. No matter what, in times of distress, in times of agony, you can always count on your friends. I go to my friends when I'm feeling down. I go to the 32 bar when I want to EMO. I have a friend who's a waiter there.

Treasure:

Without friends, do you think you could get through school ? If your answer is yes, you're denying the truth. Friends are the best thing you can achieve in life. Sometimes in life, there are bonds that that can never be broken.

Curse:

Some friends, harass other friends. Use them, manipulate them. Twist their emotions. Rip them apart. Virtually ostracise them.

Ian Goh

Badddd +1

Badddd +1;

Woke up, watched Hello, God ! Bathed. Went to IOI to get revision books and transformers comic book. They only had one ): Came back and here I am.

+1;

After all, I was indeed the fool.

I had false hopes and expectations.

I was aiming way above the bar.

You were out of my league.

Some people say : Don't give up.

I tried to give up, failed.

That shows how intoxictaing your love is.

Like alcohol pouring down my throat,

Every word you say to me soothes me.

Like tabacco and nicotine, you're adictive.

It's hard to kick the habit and,

It's harder to forget you.

Your smile is the one thing that makes me scared,

For I fear, that smile might not be for me.

Ian Goh is absolut-ing at 11 !

Despite All That Has Happened, I Forgive And Forget +1

Despite All That Has Happened, I Forgive And Forget +1;

Haha, don't worry about the title, i'm just emo-ing. It's 3 a. m. now. Still not asleep. Cousin on the floor snoring away. Me, been at the computer since 11. My emotions fluctuate a lot nowadays. I get pissed easier. Eugene if you're reading this don't say I PMS =.=

Yesterday was Friday a.k.a ACday :D Went through normal routine. Change, buy MS, eat, foosball, sunway, home, grandma's home, home, dota.

Nothing much to write about. No words can express the emotions i'm feeling now ):

BTW,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ER EUGENE !

+1;

How can I tell you what I feel for you?

When I think of you my feelings twist inside

As if someones fist reached in and grabbed a few,

And turned and turned them tight and tangled.

I've tried, Somehow to say: You're the sun in my sky,

The wind that takes me where I want to go,

The sweet ecstasy that makes me feel so high

That loving you seems all I need to know.

But it all sticks in my throat!

It sounds too cute, Empty as a wrinkled paper bag.

You won't believe it! Better I stay mute

Than offer you cliches that make you gag.

And yet I wish to tell you of my love,

If only love its own locks would remove!

Ian Goh

Brand New Eyes ! :D +1

Brand New Eyes ! :D +1;

After being patient for 2 years, Paramore fans, Brand New Eyes is finally up for pre-order ! I'll just wait for it to go into the discount rack at the Rock Corner :D

New Song : Ignorance !

BTW, I'm zzuuupperr hyepped ! :DDD

+1;

Your friendship is the sky above my home, The crystal air I breathe, through which I see. I can't believe how much you mean to me. Without you with me, time would turn to stone.
I am your guardian, to protect you from harm's way.

I know so absolutely I'll be there, In times your wounded heart can hardly bear. I only know this truth is with me now.
Why is it in our lives that we need friends, To be awake and fully what we are? Alone we dream but never cross the bar.

With you I share a cigarette that never ends.

Ian Goh

Ian The Mother-Fcuking Love Guru !

Ian The Mother-Fcuking Love Guru !;

Let me ask you a question:

Q : What's in the air ? O.O

A : Easy laa ! Love is in the air !

If your answer was something like that or if it even had the word love in it, you're CORRECT !

I predict a new love will bloom in about 1 week or more. Ermm, can't say much here. Haha. Wanna know more ? Well, you can ask me but be warned, I WILL NOT GIVE THE DIRECT ANSWERS. I'll twist it and make you find out yourself :D What's the fun of it if I just tell you know?

Ian Goh

A Moonlit Starfall +1

A Moonlit Starfall +1;

Today was boring as usual. Went to see Mrs. Chong for the IGCSE thingy. I have to retake the test T.T Oh oh and the only interesting thing about today is that I confirmed something, something so shocking, not really but you won't believe it ! HAHA ! Wanna know what it is ? Well, I can't tell you :D

+1;

Your love is like the sunset, it only shows at the end of the day.

Like a moonlit starfall, you shone brighter than all the rest.

In the vast amount of voices saying : I LOVE YOU, your voice was the only one I could hear.

Through sadness or sickness, you're always by my side.

Like the wind, you're mysterious.

The affection you show for me comes and goes.

You left me hanging on to you.

Now you come back and say that you love me,

I say : I love you too.
The world now is filled with many different variations of love,

But none is as pure as the love I feel for you.

( This is not complete, it's too short D: )

Ian Goh knows something about P&S O.O

The Fox is GONE ! : / +1

The Fox is GONE ! : / +1;

I changed my blog name. IDK why. I don't feel like having the Fox there ): Don't ask why !

+1;

I love your deep brown eyes and light brown hair.

I love the way my fear faints at your touch.

I love the way I call you and you're there,

Ready to take charge, but not too much!

I love the way you are a little girl

Needing me to kiss away all pain,

And then the jolt of automatic joy

When you say you don't love me yet again.

I love my anchor in a surging sea,

My partner winging through a darkened sky,

My pleasure-mate who loves to toy with me,

My mirror and my goal, my word, my feelings toward you.

I love the one who lets me live as two.

All this you are to me, and I to you.

Ian Goh